Scribbles and Updates

I have created so many variations of this post over the past year and a half I'm actually confusing myself, lol. I haven't posted because I haven't had any clips or progress that I've liked enough to share with y'all but honestly, my birthday is next Monday and I never thought 31 would hit me and I wouldn't have any published work to show for it considering I've been writing seriously since I was 14/15 and dabbled since I was like nine. Also, shout out to missorisso who dropped me a line on fictionpress which reminded me of how overdue this update was. I am coming to terms with the fact that perfect doesn't exist and that my writing definitely suffers every time I put it on the back burner for work but it'll never get better if I keep jumping around with it or waiting for the words I put on the page to exactly match the images in my head since I don't have that skill level yet. That being said; I did a fun little Tumblr meme for my wri...

So, I have been pretty much trash at actually updating this blog, lol. But new year, same goals but this time I have a plan. See below for a summary of the shit show that was 2016 and then my action plan (kinda) for 2017.  Let me know how your year hwas and whether you have any goals/visions for 2017! 2016 in Review My 2016  can pretty much be summarized as follows:  I lost both of my grandmothers' in the first half of the year. My mom's mom passed in February, my dad's mom passed in April. Both funerals happened a month after they passed due to outside complications. One of my closest friends also went into a crisis in March and wasn't released until mid-May. During that time all, I could think of in my head was 'deaths come in threes' which had me on edge and anxious. Work also became pretty hectic. We won new accounts but people on my team were also quitting so I've been managing a heavier workload. Wri...

Hey y'all, Happy Easter if y'all celebrate it, if not I hope you're having a good weekend! I know it's been a while and I'm not going to bother with excuses, just going to provide writing updates. I've decided to treat Judi and Missy's stories as a series. Their stories can stand alone but they connect slightly through each other and I figure it makes it easier to show they're connected if they have a series title. As a result I've renamed Missy's story to flow better with Judi's (and talks to the plot of her story). I give to you: "Fall For Your Type" Book 1 : It Was Only a Kiss Book 2: It's In His Kiss (IIHK) Below the cut I have a IIHK snippit that provides you guys with a spoiler regarding what Judi has been up to (but is spoiler free on what's going to happen in Missy's book). Read at your own peril -- it's an unedited first draft and even some names still need to be figured out. This is...

Hey all, Super quick update. I've written a new outline for FFYT (Missy/Vince story) that I think is cute and follows a theme I had started in IWOAK which I'm sure y'all will figure out as soon as you read it, lol. I'm making it my project for my writing course so hopefully that'll be a great way to get further along in the story while improving my writing overall. It's an interesting class in that it feels like there aren't any actual lessons the way I'm used to or even assignments the way I'm used to (you don't get grades, just teacher feedback) so on one hand having deadlines is good for me since I didn't drop all that money just to waste it, on the other hand it doesn't feel like I'm learning anything I don't know. But I'm writing which is what I want and one of my biggest fears about writing courses was having someone try to change my writing style which I guess would happen if we got actual level grades. Sidenote...

It has been forever since I've written anything here and I'm sorry about that! I just keep getting bogged down in things and putting writing on the back burner and then I feel like shit for being so behind. Currently I'm looking into registering for a novel writing course at a local uni near me. I'm working full time so it'll be an online course, but I think it would be a great way to push my writing to the next level. I just fed up with writing currently. IWOAK is complete, the first draft, but the second draft is just a struggle to get out and I don't know why. FFYT has stalled major and while I have new ideas for other works they never get past the first few chapters. I keep thinking I've figured out where the issue is and then it doesn't work and I just get stuck. But at least with the course I can get feedback and a structure that might help and then next steps will lead to me finally letting go and letting the story be the best it can be. Now...

I think the hardest part of writing is thinking you have something and then having it fizzle into absolutely nothing. I've been working on FFYT (may be retitled to No Good Deed) and I'm having the hardest time getting the opening down. I'll write a shit ton of words, get quite far into it and then get stuck and no matter what I do I can't move forward and I realise that I've been going down the wrong way. With some stories I can just cut a few plot points/chapters and while that can result in my losing over 15,000 words at least I still have a start that'll work for me. Not so with Fall For Your Type. I keep having to take a step back and try and rethink how to work it and it's just, it's really frustrating and blocking me when I try to work on other projects. I don't know how to get out of this slump. And a large part of me thinks it might be a result of the change in my sleeping patterns -- when I was writing fairly consistently I was in univ...

Hey all, Just thought I'd do a check in and let you guys know where I stand writing wise since I've been offline for the past few months. I removed IWOAK from FP last night. I'm getting into the heavier lifting stage of rewriting it and after going over it I just didn't feel comfortable leaving it up. Also, to all the people who reread it, more power to you because that's 200k words of rambling for a lot of it and unnecessary detail. I'm definitely going to be tightening it up, cutting unnecessary subplots (some I'm actually considering transferring over to FFYT since it'll work in the context of that story a lot better, especially since I'll be aging the characters up by about two years to make it flow better with the pacing). Fall For Your Type is coming along, I'm on the fence on whether or not I should post some of the rough opening chapters on here if I'm going to try and publish it as part of a series/duology. This whole thing...

Hey you guys, sorry for being so late with updates! I hope everything has been going well for you guys and 2014 has been better than 2013! For me, things are quite a bit different. Work has been hectic, I was moved to another team and now I'm working on three accounts instead of just focusing on one so I had to learn the ropes and then there was a mass firing (I wasn't let go) but we were given additional responsibilities so I've just been focusing on staying on top of everything in my main job. Writing wise I've been doing a lot of thinking, not just about IWOAK but my other completed stories that I should have rewritten and revised but haven't gotten very far on. It doesn't make sense that I'm having such a hard time to get really into the writing/rewriting of finished stories (WDC, IWOAK) or stories I already have major plot points figured out (FFYT, OMN). The main issue is the mind set I'm in now versus the mindset I was in when I started. Wh...

So, as part of my goal to stay on track with writing in 2014 I'm going to try and make a post about what I'm working on/thinking about at least once a month because it'll keep me accountable (hopefully) and I think you guys would like to be kept up to date since I know how it feels to be waiting for your fave to let you know what's going on with their writing. Now, I won't make any promises on what day/week this will be posted (hopefully mid-month) and I'm not sure I'll be as consistent with this as I want or if I'll just go back to the status updates when I have the time but it doesn't hurt to try it out. Would you guys be interested in my progress 'submission' wise as well? That'll be nearer the middle of the year but I think a goal this year is to really step up on getting my writing out there beyond FP and the like. So now on to current WIPs and where I stand on them:

Hey guys, I know I haven't posted in 6 months but I'm honestly fed up with myself and my inability to get past the idea/plotting stage of a story to the actual writing. Even forcing my self isn't working. I tried nano and went absolutely nowhere. I'm talking like 6000 words max. However, I've joined a couple of those publisher communities (i.e. swoonreads.com ) where you can post your stories online and depending on community feedback they have voting rounds and if you get high enough your story will be looked at by editors of the publication and then the 'winner' or top book of that period will be published. I'm seriously thinking about  submitting IWOAK to the community and see how it does. Mind you, I might age the characters up a bit, first year uni at the max for Judi and the girls just to make certain aspects of the story more realistic. I'm not sure on that yet, but it's an option, especially since I think there's not  ...

Hey you guys, I know I've been MIA for quite a while now but I am writing, just slowly.Very slowly. After I finished IWOAK I sort of got stuck in this weird limbo where I have ideas and I can plot those out but writing the actual words is a bust. I have like six false starts for One More Night (the gladiator-ish story I've posted on here) even though I know the characters and I know how I want them to meet again in our time. I had a quick brain storm with my sister that hopefully we can extend on over the weekend and it'll be the kick I need to get everything working again.  Then there's the epilogue for IWOAK. Oy. I have that outlined and everything but the words aren't coming at all. I know where I wan the scene to happen, how I want it to happen but it just won't happen. I don't know, rereading the story isn't helping me get back into the flow, it's just making my fingers itch I'm hoping to at least have that finished sometime this mon...

So IWOAK is complete and a lot of you are ready to read about Missy and Vince.Those two have history and they both regret the way ish went down between them. I don't have anything I can say without giving away parts of FFYT but I thought it might be nice to give you guys a look at one of the important parts of Missy's life since while she was there for Judi every step of the way, she was still quite secretive.  In FFYT, and IWOAK, Missy has only one person she considers her boyfriend. Her first in a lot of things and the love of her life even though he died before they had even properly exited the hell that was puberty (and for those thinking you've passed puberty hell at 16 remember all the little things that made you want to freak out and/or felt like your life was ruined. Hormones gallivanting all over the damn place). I can't go into too much detail about their relationship (again, FFYT should cover that) but physically he was her ideal type. When Missy was w...

Has been uploaded. Enjoy ;) Review responses will be put up sometime this week. Possible epilogue in the works, not sure yet.

Happy 2013 all! I just wanted to thank all of you for the support over the years, this year especially since I know my writing has slowed down quite a bit and life kept intruding and I have yet to perfect the art of multi-tasking to that degree. This isn't going to be super long, just letting you know that IWOAK will be updated by the end of this week, Sunday at the latest. The chapter is complete I'm honestly just trying to work out a few kinks but I won't be ditching huge chunks of text (I don't think) lol. Since I've been pretty neglectful here's some Missy (no spoilers for FFYT I don't think):

Second prologue is behind the cut. Enjoy!

Alright, so here's the (first) prologue to the short story I'm trying to use to break me out of the IWOAK slumps. It is nothing like IWOAK, at least for the first two prologues which are set very very loosely in Roman times (forgive me my huge historical inaccuracies) and has a much darker tone. I ran into some issues but I'll see how the next few chapters come along before I write about it just incase it's more of a mind set thing and not a writing thing. I will say that sex scenes are hard.Especially when they're supposed to highlight the mind set of the characters as well as show a connection, pretty sure I suck at it but at the same time it was fun and I'm looking at it all as practice, lol. Prologue is below, there is some violence and sex though I don't think it's too explicit. I understand if it's not your thing but I do hope you guys enjoy it!

So I think I've figured out why this chapter is so hard for me. Part of the reason is because I want it to end well. I want it to be true to the tone and the characters that I've created while being realistic based on the situation, but the other reason is because I've been overthinking it and focused only on this story. When I was reaching the end of WDC, I was already starting to work on IWOAK, and with one of the other novels I finished (it wasn't posted on FP, at lest not the finished product) I had been working on WDC and it alternately whenever I got stuck on one. And when that didn't work I drew or painted or had some other form of creative outlet. This time around I've been working only on IWOAK and sometimes FFYT or trying to work on CHOICES with all other stories being put on the backburner or I haven't been writing at all, not seriously. I haven't even really drawn/painted anything in a while.  I've decided to just write the short ...

Hey all, So I'm still pushing through this chapter. Got fed up and I figured I'd share one of the scenes that got cut since it wasn't getting the urgency across and Judi's voice isn't flowing properly. I've reread this story more times these past few months then I have during the years I've been writing it and it still isn't coming to me. I've written almost 20K and not even half of that is usable. So unamused. I don't think there are any spoilers, it's a bit of backstory and there's some violence.  This was one of multiple openings I had written for this chapter, and was going to be the original opening but I scrapped it about a week or two ago.  Scene below the cut:

IWOAK 35 This shit needs to end. I swear to you. I'm here >.< with this bloody chapter. Like, this shit, ugh. It's going to be finished this month, the feel might be slightly off as will the pacing but it's taking me too damn long for a chapter I know exactly how it'll go. It's frustrating me something fierce because it's like, UGH. I don't have any excuses because this shit should've been handled so it's going to get posted soon. It's vexing me. It's also probably going to be quite long because everything picks up in this chapter.  Thanks to all of you for your patience with this. FFYT This story may not end up on fictionpress.There have been a few things that keep making me weary about posting on fp so I will definitely keep you all posted about where this story will be posted. I haven't written anything for this aside from scenes that popped into my head out of order because I need IWOAK to be finished first. T...

Hey All, I am working on this, it's just harder than I thought especially with all the anger and fear flying around the page. I'm aiming to have it up before September. Hope all is well with you guys.