Scribbles and Updates

Second prologue is behind the cut. Enjoy!

Alright, so here's the (first) prologue to the short story I'm trying to use to break me out of the IWOAK slumps. It is nothing like IWOAK, at least for the first two prologues which are set very very loosely in Roman times (forgive me my huge historical inaccuracies) and has a much darker tone. I ran into some issues but I'll see how the next few chapters come along before I write about it just incase it's more of a mind set thing and not a writing thing. I will say that sex scenes are hard.Especially when they're supposed to highlight the mind set of the characters as well as show a connection, pretty sure I suck at it but at the same time it was fun and I'm looking at it all as practice, lol. Prologue is below, there is some violence and sex though I don't think it's too explicit. I understand if it's not your thing but I do hope you guys enjoy it!

So I think I've figured out why this chapter is so hard for me. Part of the reason is because I want it to end well. I want it to be true to the tone and the characters that I've created while being realistic based on the situation, but the other reason is because I've been overthinking it and focused only on this story. When I was reaching the end of WDC, I was already starting to work on IWOAK, and with one of the other novels I finished (it wasn't posted on FP, at lest not the finished product) I had been working on WDC and it alternately whenever I got stuck on one. And when that didn't work I drew or painted or had some other form of creative outlet. This time around I've been working only on IWOAK and sometimes FFYT or trying to work on CHOICES with all other stories being put on the backburner or I haven't been writing at all, not seriously. I haven't even really drawn/painted anything in a while.  I've decided to just write the short ...

Hey all, So I'm still pushing through this chapter. Got fed up and I figured I'd share one of the scenes that got cut since it wasn't getting the urgency across and Judi's voice isn't flowing properly. I've reread this story more times these past few months then I have during the years I've been writing it and it still isn't coming to me. I've written almost 20K and not even half of that is usable. So unamused. I don't think there are any spoilers, it's a bit of backstory and there's some violence.  This was one of multiple openings I had written for this chapter, and was going to be the original opening but I scrapped it about a week or two ago.  Scene below the cut:

IWOAK 35 This shit needs to end. I swear to you. I'm here >.< with this bloody chapter. Like, this shit, ugh. It's going to be finished this month, the feel might be slightly off as will the pacing but it's taking me too damn long for a chapter I know exactly how it'll go. It's frustrating me something fierce because it's like, UGH. I don't have any excuses because this shit should've been handled so it's going to get posted soon. It's vexing me. It's also probably going to be quite long because everything picks up in this chapter.  Thanks to all of you for your patience with this. FFYT This story may not end up on fictionpress.There have been a few things that keep making me weary about posting on fp so I will definitely keep you all posted about where this story will be posted. I haven't written anything for this aside from scenes that popped into my head out of order because I need IWOAK to be finished first. T...

Hey All, I am working on this, it's just harder than I thought especially with all the anger and fear flying around the page. I'm aiming to have it up before September. Hope all is well with you guys.

Hey All, Just a heads up that I'll be taking WDC down on Sunday. I was supposed to do it last week [on the 1st] but didn't get around to it. So reread now/read for the first time if you've been meaning too. IWOAK 35 is about 1/4 done, aim is to have it out before August. Hope all is well!

loyal forever and always: I am flattered that my writing helps to give you inspiration and I'm sorry this chapter didn't work out for you. I know a lot of  people were missing Missy and AJ but in this situation I found it would be better  for all eyes to be on Judi though I get what you mean when you say these past few chapters haven't been up to my usual work. Thanks for the review and I hope the  newest chapter works better for you.    Sarah: The problem, in regards to it feel like it's going on forever is my pacing. I get ideas for a lot of little scenes that probably should just get cut so that  the story is tighter. There is a resolution coming and quite soon.    I can't lie, your review rubbed me the wrong way but only when you started  explaining the point of the review button, especially since I don't think I've  ever attacked someone for giving their honest opinion. You told me how you felt and regardless of wheth...

IWOAK has been updated, tell me what you think! There's a bit of AJ and Jared, very little Missy but the next chapter is where she's going to shine and I might post some of the rejected scenes/openings for this chapter where she had a bit more shine. Hope you like it!

So, next update will most likely be next week, I have to do some reshuffling and I'm really hoping I'll be hit with that 'bing!' moment and I can rewrite everything so you can get that moment of excitement throughout because I feel that moment has been missing for a while. This whole story needs a rewrite, the earlier chapters just need to be tightened and fixed to match my current style but some of the newer chapters need to be written to capture the moments of the older ones better. Like, you know when you read a cute scene and you get that little thrum and it's just awesome? I want to be able to write that back. Sigh, but this story ends in two chapters, three if we count the epilogue and I'm not too sure I'll get back into the groove but it will be fixed in the rewrite. Anyway, to make up for not being able to update today, I thought it would be fun to show you guys one of the alternate openings for this story . I think I like this opening a bit be...

Hey all, So chapter 34 is coming along. It's actually pretty much done but I did all the typing on my cellphone on the ride too and from work and now I'm trying to catch all the typos on a real computer when I have the time, but my spellcheck is being sometimesish about catching the mistakes, even stupid ones that are a result of my thumb hitting the wrong button so hopefully I can get it all cleaned up and finished for this weekend but if not, next week for sure. Now, I don't know how many of you have heard, but there was an incident at a mall in Toronto that is basically the major mall for the city. Everyone goes there. It's a three minute walk from my work and when you're in highschool it's a 'destination' mall. You know when you want to hang out somewhere but the mall by your house isn't cool enough so you go to the bigger mall downtown and you're overly excited while trying to act like you shop there all the time? That mall. There was ...

NOTE: For some reason, fp disabled all of my alerts so I'm guessing they probably did that for a few other people as well. If you didn't receive an alert for chapter 33, double check your alert settings. IWOAK 33 quotata : since I can't respond via fp, I meant that he said fine quietly when he told her mother a 'quiet fine', lol. Sorry for the confusion. IWOAK32 wateva : Thanks :) Lily : Considering the length of my chapters, it's quite a feat to read the majority of the story on a cell, lol. I have no intention of dropping this story, it's about 3 chapters from the end and I will finish it even if it's taking me forever. I'm glad you're enjoying the story, thanks for the review! Grumpirah : To them Chris is their actual blood, and so they take his side even though he has a history of being wrong. Not all of them, mind you, but enough to make it frustrating. Thanks for the review! i guess: I'm not sure what you mean by you were ...

IWOAK 33 I decided to just post the first half of chapter 33 since it's about 5K and it's a decent chapter, and what with work who knows when I'll be able to actually get the second half typed up and posted and I already missed posting for April. So, review replies for 32 will be a bit late in coming as I have a family get together tonight but I hope you guys like the chapter! WDC So, I started cleaning this bad boy up and it started to turn into a full blown rewrite and I'm liking it quite a bit better. I'm contemplating entering it into a couple of contests to see how it fares and then querying agents OR going straight epub with the cleaned up version. But if I go epub I want it to be as professional as possible, so cover art, no errors grammar or continuity etc.  and since we all know how I am with time management that might be a bit of a bust. Oh vell. Hope everything is good with you guys!

Hey all, I know, I went off grid for a while but I'm still here. Started my internship three weeks ago and I've been commuting/working/commuting/sleeping. Lol. I have been writing on the commute though, it's an hour twenty both ways not counting the fifteen minute walk to and from the bus stop and then to and from my work so when I'm awake enough I'm putting in work, it's just finding the time to actually type it up. internship ends this Friday [ please let me get hired, please, please, please ] and there's no guarantee I'll get kept so there's that. Of course, it's my little brother's birthday tomorrow as well as a friend of mines so this weekend will probably be celebrating with them. Um, what else. Oh, someone is on fictionpress asking to buy people's copyright. If this happens to you say no. It might be a scam, it might not, but considering it's different user names each time [so far] and there's no information about w...

So I'm about halfway finished 33, I'm aiming to have it finished fairly soon but it's a heavy chapter on all fronts. It's looking like it'll be longer than I intended unless I go off-scene with some things or do flashbacks, and I'm not sure since I feel both AJ and Jared deserve full screen time. We shall see how it works when I finish writing it out. I wanted to have a teaser or cut scene to post but I couldn't find anything that wasn't spoilerish for later on so I thought I'd give you guys the beginning of the chapter. End of chapter 32 she confronts her parents about knowing about  Jared and this continues directly from there.   Do not click if you want to read it all in one go when I actually post on fp. This is about two and a half pages of what will be [unless I get stuck] in the final draft.

Kinda want to bump the previous post down since it continues to bother my soul, lol, and I'm trying to move past that. So, updates. Non-Writing Related Heading into the final stretch for school, found out today I got my internship! *brap brap* here's hoping they hire me afterwards and I don't have to struggle at searching for a job as I usually do. Of course, this means that all of my major projects are coming to a head since the internship starts in April but I'm hoping to figure out a system that will work better than the one I currently have, which hasn't been working out that well when it comes to writing regularly, lol. Um, I've decided to start running since I went from playing some sort of sport all through highschool and elementary school and even the first three/four years of college to doing nothing at all and I'm beginning to feel the effects. had to run five minutes to my bus stop and almost passed out once I got on, lmao, and I intend ...

So, she finally responded and her response. I'm not going to comment on her post but that has to be the most unapologetic thing I've ever heard and I have called her everything but a child of God in my mind, every time I have started writing this. Thanks to dancingblonde.22 for calling my attention to the fact that she 'updated'. Here's what she said, and I'll copy it and paste it here before she pulls it down: The title of the chapter is This Goes Out to You and You. Thank you so much to… Thief, a better author than you, Mika-Chan, Annoyed, .Horrible, RogueMudBlood, 101, mewmewmew, RainaRaspberry, Disgusted, jammi, what is wrong with you, Sequined Pajamas, littlemomo-chan, LadyLuckAJ, Yuukiyanagi, December 1996, Anonymous, Daimond Jade, Lykeroses, g, pissed off, kyo-kyou, wow, DanniS07, Q, and Here I am4. Before I elaborate, one of the flamers typed out my full name. All I have to say is holy crap. Why'd you stalk me like that? I mean, unl...

So here are the replies for the anon reviews. JamaicanGurl - I'm glad you're enjoying the story and my writing style. When it comes to spelling patois, I think that can be up for some debate, lol. I would actually spell it 'yahdies' [as would my friends but we're second gen. lol] but I said yardies because I think that would be easier to figure out what it means since I am writing for a mixed audience, lol, and yard is clearly stated while 'yahd' or 'yaad' would be confusing for people not in the country. And I said 'wind' because you can wind up a toy and it's a twisting motion so it's easy to connect it to the action they're doing with their hips, lol. I know I didn't update before Christmas but I hope you like the latest chapter! Thanks for the review :) quotata (since you have PM disabled) - I'm glad you liked the conversation with Sean, that was one of the parts I was having difficulty with since there...

Chapter 32 is finally up. Anon reviews will be up on the blog later this week/early next week. I hope you like the chapter :)

I know some of you are worried that I'm not going to finish but I am working on it. School officially started last week so I wanted to get the chapter done by this weekend but the transition is killing me. At some point in time, I took a scene that should've happened earlier out/altered it and now a scene I need to write for this chapter isn't working because its set up is built on what should've happened in the removed scene. I think I've figured out how to fix it but we'll see if I'm able to get it out this week as planned since third week [of school] is when everything will start to really pick up. Also, someone asked when we'll be seeing a happier Judi... not for a while. Her house of cards is tumbling and things are coming to light that she either has chosen to ignore or didn't about are coming to light.

I hope everyone had a great night last night and that this year is better than last's. I'm aiming to have IWOAK32 up sometime this week since once again I scrapped a few openings and had to start fresh. What makes it frustrating is that the openings are like 3000 words, I feel like I've got everything going and then boom, stalled. I don't really have any solid goals at the moment since I've been sucking at actually achieving them, lol, but what are your goals/resolutions/wishes for the new year? I also want to thank you guys for the support over the past few years and for sticking with me, it's much appreciated <3333